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Monday, 10 November 2008

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    Fable II
    By Microsoft
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    Thanks Xanga!

    It's crazy to think back in April of 2005 this is where it started.  Zach left his first comment to me and from there it's all a part of our history.  To think we met on the internet, Xanga of all places, and now we are married!

     

    So thanks Xanga without you I don't think I would have ever found him.

Sunday, 07 September 2008

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    Make Up the Breakdown
    By Hot Hot Heat
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    Will the windows ever be put in!?!?  Supposedly the answer is this week, we will see. 

    I know one of the first things Zach and I are doing in our new place is having Drunken Karaoke Night! (Zach doesn't know about that one yet, haha)  I have always asked him to play the games with me and he never would but he said once we got into this new place we can rock it out.

    I couldn't be more excited about everything that's getting ready to happen.  We will finally be in our own place and then in less than 2 months we are going to be married.  I can't believe who quickly time is passing because November 2nd will be here before I know it.

Saturday, 29 December 2007

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    Super Paper Mario
    By Nintendo
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    So now Christmas is over.  I really like Christmas time just because I know I will get the chance to see my family.  We left Christmas Eve after everyone got off work and Zech got to go with us again this year.  It was nice leaving that day because we got to join everybody for Christmas Breakfast at my Grandma and Grandpa Moss' house.  This will probably be the last Christmas at the log house because they are working on moving into a smaller home.  I will miss getting to go to that place but I know a smaller place will be much easier on them.  We also got to have lunch over at the Grandma and Grandpa McDaniel's and that's where we stayed till we left the day after Christmas.

    I got lots of very awesome stuff for Christmas but I don't think anything could possibly top what Zech got me....a NINTENDO WII!!!! Oooo it's so very awesome!  I would actually much rather be playing it right now then typing something on here but Zech complains because I don't blog enough, haha.

    I actually have this whole weekend off and I feel like I need it.  It seems every night I'm going to bed at 8 o'clock.  Who does that??? I'm only 23 I should be enjoying life until midnight not sleeping all the time.

    I should also be enjoying life right now instead of typing on here, haha.

    <3

Wednesday, 07 November 2007

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    No Need to Argue
    By The Cranberries
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    I warn you now these are a lot of random thoughts that probably won't make a bit of sense...that's what I get for trying to figure myself out.

     

    A couple of weeks ago when I shared days off with my mom we were discussing ways I have changed since the past.  She took the words right out of my thoughts when she said, "...it's like your heart has hardened..." that is something I have been thinking about myself ever since the last time I allowed myself to be hurt.  She said it was like I'm harsher and almost meaner now to protect myself from letting anyone hurt me again.  Sometimes I think when people read that they are going to laugh because most think I seem so nice...but most the people I have contact with now didn't know me before all that happened.  Most the people around me now know me since I've been with Zech.  Also I try not to be bitchy around them.  I don't know...I feel like everything I'm saying won't make sense to some but it does to me. 

    The reason I'm typing this is because I feel like I've become such a bad person now.  I'm less understanding, less patient, less sympathetic, less caring, less loving, less on a lot of things.  I'm to scared to let myself be close to anyone, friends or anything...except for Zech.  When Zech and I first started going out I told myself I didn't want to become to serious about this guy but that didn't work, haha.  I find myself not being genuine with people when it comes to being sympathetic, the only people who see this side would be my family and Zech.

    Another thing I think about is have a really changed all that much.  Is this the kind of person I've always been?  Maybe I'm just finally seeing the kind of person I really am...if so I don't think I like this person.

    Yesterday I was discussing with Teresa another bad trait of mine.  I hold grudges for a long time.  Even if I'm nice to the person's face I will still keep to myself this bitterness towards that person.  It's such a sad way to be...it's also sad and pathetic to pitty yourself.  Anyway I told her my saying instead of Forgive and Forget is "Forget and Forget them".  Not really true though I have trouble letting go of and forgetting things just as much as I do forgiving. 

    I try so hard to be a good Christian, to forgive like Jesus would but I still keep so much anger in me about things that have happened.  I'm such a pathetic person. 

    At least with all these faults I have some how caught the eye and heart of the most amazing person I've ever met.  I don't know how I got so lucky.  Maybe it was my good after all the bad I went through.

Saturday, 03 November 2007

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    Ashes of the Wake
    By Lamb of God
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    1 thing down 1 million more to go

    Well not really a million but sometimes it feels that way but at least one of the most important details of the Wedding/Reception is covered, that being where it's taking place.

    They are so nice too!  They said Zech and I will be able to go in and look around as it gets closer to the date and we get to fill out a chart so they can set up tables and chairs for us.  I booked the place for Saturday Nov. 1st and Sunday Nov. 2nd. I thought maybe I would be more relaxed the day of the wedding if I get to rehearse there the evening before, we will see.  My parents were nice enough to cover the extra day.  I know my dad is happy that we didn't get the weekend we originally thought about because that weekend is the first weekend of gun season, haha.

    Now that the Holidays are approaching I'm thinking more about Christmas.  I think I will do with my family what I did last year and with Zech I told him we need to set a limit with how much we spend on each other because it's very important that we continue to save money.  So no Wii for me this Christmas but that's okay it was my choice not ask for it anymore.

    Zech and I are now actually half way through the last Lost Season 2 episode.  I jokingly told Zech that if this all ends up being the fantasy of an autistic child staring into a snow globe, Lost will be the worst show ever created, haha.  If you don't understand that look up the television show St. Elsewhere.  I was disappointed to see Libby die but I read up on it and supposedly that actress and the actress who played Ana-Lucia both had DUI charges the year before that episode and it's speculated that is one reason why they were killed off although the show denied it.  Also I read they were originally just going to kill off Ana-Lucia but with her not being a character fans liked they chose to also kill off Libby to get the emotional reaction from the audience they wanted.  I'm disappointed to see Libby die because she's the only character they never did a flashback for, she's been in other peoples but the last I saw she was in a mental hospital and now she's dead...wtf?!?!  I had to look into this and read that supposedly you see her in more flashbacks later on that piece together what was going on with her, who knows.

    Now I'm going to talk about characters that I enjoy

    Hurley is great he's so lovable and funny.  I like Charlie, Charlie is the person I would want to hang out with on the island, yeah go figure the ex-addict.  Claire is my favorite female character on the show, maybe it's just because she grew on me while she was pregnant during majority of the first season, who knows.  But as of now on the show my very favorite character is Mr. Eko...I've heard "Locke's such a badass, blah, blah, blah"  Please Mr. Eko only has to wack people one time with his Holy Stick and they are done, then he can also give them a nice funeral service with a proper sending.  He's so awesome, I do feel sorry for him though...at this point with what I have seen I feel the button is a load of bullshit and he's thinking it's ooooh so important.  Oh well he can still bash people's heads in with a rock.  I have liked Sayid through most of what I've seen but as this Season comes to an end he's gotten cooler, I'm happy he was at least smart enough to see what Michael was doing!  It was so obvious what was going on with Michael and that he was full of shit that I wanted to kick the television hoping to wake the fuckers on the tv up!  Thankfully Sayid caught on to see Michael is getting ready to lead the rest of them into a trap.  Anyway that's enough about Lost I'm going to make my damn self sick of that show, I need some 24.

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  • Zech_Zombie
    I remember when you first came over to my place. My mom was in the hospital and my dad was asleep, so it was just you and I. You have no idea how bad I wanted to kiss you, hug you, or throw my arm around you like some kind of smooth guy, but never did. When you left that night I jumped on the net an